Just like an addict who has had their last fix, the coming down is the hardest. I have finished Lost, 24 and now I have finished Desperate Housewives.
I knew that these things would not last, so I aquired Nip/Tuck to soften the blow, but my melted brain is just not ready for the gore and self centredness that this show brings to the table.
Where do I go from here? Why does normal TV leave me unsatiated? What is the matter with me? Maybe I need to look to the classics, Ally McBeal, Friends. Maybe they can sort me out, re-watching a series does not have the urgency of the new. To top it all off, K tells me that the new series of Lost and Alias are infuriating.
I think that I may never watch Tv again, except when I get hold of Arrested Development or Six Feet Under, I hear that they are really very good.
"He who is created by television can be destroyed by television."
Theodore H White
"I hate television. I hate it as much as peanuts. But I can't stop eating peanuts"
Orson Welles
October 19, 2005
October 18, 2005
Before Sunrise
The mornings continue to be dark and by the time I got to school this morning, the steetlamps were still on. As I got out of the bus I saw that the sky was orange. I turned round to look towards the Eiffel Tower and saw the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen.
The whole sky looked like it was on fire, orange and blood red. Heavy clouds meant that all the colour also had shape and the light climbed up until it seemed like the whole sky was shades of the sun. The sunrise cast a pink glow over all the buildings, so it seemed like there was magic in the air.
Just as quickly as I saw it it was gone. By the time I had walked the five minutes to school the pink and red had started to fade, as I look out of my window now, it has been replaced by a light grey blue as the darkness fades to light. The streetlamps are out now.
"This moment contains all moments"
CS Lewis
The whole sky looked like it was on fire, orange and blood red. Heavy clouds meant that all the colour also had shape and the light climbed up until it seemed like the whole sky was shades of the sun. The sunrise cast a pink glow over all the buildings, so it seemed like there was magic in the air.
Just as quickly as I saw it it was gone. By the time I had walked the five minutes to school the pink and red had started to fade, as I look out of my window now, it has been replaced by a light grey blue as the darkness fades to light. The streetlamps are out now.
"This moment contains all moments"
CS Lewis
October 15, 2005
Anne time
Saturday was warm and bright, walks down the Champs Elysse with L, cafe creme and sunshine. We closed our eyes to feel the sun on our faces in the Jardin de Tuileries and ate cakes in Cador. We chatted and walked for miles, smiling at the fact that we live in Paris, understanding that this makes us so lucky and so special.
I spent a lot of time in my little area of the fifth this weekend. I love the routine that comes with a new life in a new place. I have my Sunday morning cappucino place now, I get my coffee and go sit in the Jardin du Luxembourg. The people that jog around, play with their children or read philosophy books make for the most interesting people watching ever.
I have also spent much time chatting to friends all over the world. I sat last night and ate bread and cheese and drank red wine, I am so Parisienne! This is the last week of this half term and on Saturday I will have a whole week free. Funny how these first few weeks have slipped by. I am ready for my holiday. The girls are coming and then I am off to Warsaw. It will be Paris to Warsaw then.
"Relaxation means releasing all concern and tension and letting the natural order of life flow through ones being"
Donald Curtis
"Beautiful Dawn,
I'm just chasing time again"
James Blunt
I spent a lot of time in my little area of the fifth this weekend. I love the routine that comes with a new life in a new place. I have my Sunday morning cappucino place now, I get my coffee and go sit in the Jardin du Luxembourg. The people that jog around, play with their children or read philosophy books make for the most interesting people watching ever.
I have also spent much time chatting to friends all over the world. I sat last night and ate bread and cheese and drank red wine, I am so Parisienne! This is the last week of this half term and on Saturday I will have a whole week free. Funny how these first few weeks have slipped by. I am ready for my holiday. The girls are coming and then I am off to Warsaw. It will be Paris to Warsaw then.
"Relaxation means releasing all concern and tension and letting the natural order of life flow through ones being"
Donald Curtis
"Beautiful Dawn,
I'm just chasing time again"
James Blunt
October 14, 2005
Weekend stretching out
The weekend is stretching out in front of my like a fresh croissant waiting to be eaten. I have very few actual plans which means that I am free to indulge in the Anne time that I so wanted at the beginning of the week.
It is clear to everyone that Friday afternoon is the best part of the weekend, no time has yet been wasted and you are as far away as you get from Monday morning. This weekend will hold the usual bits of laundry, cleaning and all that stuff. I will start with my weekly chat with Ally in Australia, I will text her when I get up to let her know that I am ready and awake. I will make a cup of tea in my little apartment and lie on my sofa while we catch up on the gossip of the continents that seperate us.
After that I will go out and do something, I am not going to tell say what, I want to surprise myself. The weather in Paris is so amazing today, blue skies that make you think of the summer. This is the best of Autumn, that coolness of air coupled with sunshine that makes you need your sunglasses back. There is no way to be anything other than calm and settled when you look through the browning leaves framed by the bluest skies.
A whole weekend before me, looking through these eyes. Walking down these boulevards to get anywhere is a treat. Stop to realise that the process is a part of the perfection, it makes me happy to think that.
"In solitude, where we are least alone"
Lord Byron
"All flowers in time bend towards the sun,
I know you say there's no-one for you,
But here is one"
Jeff Buckley
It is clear to everyone that Friday afternoon is the best part of the weekend, no time has yet been wasted and you are as far away as you get from Monday morning. This weekend will hold the usual bits of laundry, cleaning and all that stuff. I will start with my weekly chat with Ally in Australia, I will text her when I get up to let her know that I am ready and awake. I will make a cup of tea in my little apartment and lie on my sofa while we catch up on the gossip of the continents that seperate us.
After that I will go out and do something, I am not going to tell say what, I want to surprise myself. The weather in Paris is so amazing today, blue skies that make you think of the summer. This is the best of Autumn, that coolness of air coupled with sunshine that makes you need your sunglasses back. There is no way to be anything other than calm and settled when you look through the browning leaves framed by the bluest skies.
A whole weekend before me, looking through these eyes. Walking down these boulevards to get anywhere is a treat. Stop to realise that the process is a part of the perfection, it makes me happy to think that.
"In solitude, where we are least alone"
Lord Byron
"All flowers in time bend towards the sun,
I know you say there's no-one for you,
But here is one"
Jeff Buckley
October 13, 2005
Work is just work
It is a truth that should be universally acknowledged. Work is just work no matter where you go or what you do. What must it be like to be the sort of person that loves what they do, that can't wait to get out of bed and start their day.
Pretty much everyone must have worked out by now that I need new challenges. I need change, I need stimulation. This is the 6th year of being a teacher for me and I am starting to think that it may be time for a change.
Don't get me wrong. I am lucky to work with children and teenagers. Everyone that I have had the good fortune to work with has brought a bit of sunshine into my day. What I need to escape from are the politics of education, the behind the scenes issues that teachers should not really have to deal with.
The question is though, if I was not a teacher what would I be? I would love to be a writer, a princess, a film star, a fashion designer, newspaper journalist. Who has the time or money to re-train? How do you train to be a princess anyway?
"It is a miracle that curiosity survives formal education."
Albert Einstein
"Analyzing what you haven't got as well as what you have is a necessary ingredient of a career."
Orison Swett Marden
Pretty much everyone must have worked out by now that I need new challenges. I need change, I need stimulation. This is the 6th year of being a teacher for me and I am starting to think that it may be time for a change.
Don't get me wrong. I am lucky to work with children and teenagers. Everyone that I have had the good fortune to work with has brought a bit of sunshine into my day. What I need to escape from are the politics of education, the behind the scenes issues that teachers should not really have to deal with.
The question is though, if I was not a teacher what would I be? I would love to be a writer, a princess, a film star, a fashion designer, newspaper journalist. Who has the time or money to re-train? How do you train to be a princess anyway?
"It is a miracle that curiosity survives formal education."
Albert Einstein
"Analyzing what you haven't got as well as what you have is a necessary ingredient of a career."
Orison Swett Marden
October 12, 2005
Desire
There are things about your old life that you always miss when you pick up this travelling thread. There are things that never cause you to cast a backward glance. Being English but not living in England continues to provoke a feeling of patriotism and nostalgia.
One of the things that I dream about on nearly a daily basis is driving. Being a country girl growing up, getting a car and your license are major things. They spell freedom. I have owned a sucession of cars, my last being a Volkswagen Polo before I left for Warsaw. I miss driving. I miss having a tape player in the car and singing my way through traffic jams. I miss shopping in York and then throwing everything in the boot before singing my way home.
I miss buying those little car air freshners, or buying a latte to drink on the way to somewhere. That has been made illegal in the Uk now, but still. I have decided that wherever I go next, I am going to get a car. I nearly bid for a red 1985 Citroen 2CV yesterday on ebay.It was only 105 pounds. The only thing that stopped me is that my parents may finally think I have actually gone mad.
"The secret of happiness is to admire without desiring"
Carl Sandburg
"Better keep yourself clean and bright. You are the window through which you must see the world"
George Bernard Shaw
One of the things that I dream about on nearly a daily basis is driving. Being a country girl growing up, getting a car and your license are major things. They spell freedom. I have owned a sucession of cars, my last being a Volkswagen Polo before I left for Warsaw. I miss driving. I miss having a tape player in the car and singing my way through traffic jams. I miss shopping in York and then throwing everything in the boot before singing my way home.
I miss buying those little car air freshners, or buying a latte to drink on the way to somewhere. That has been made illegal in the Uk now, but still. I have decided that wherever I go next, I am going to get a car. I nearly bid for a red 1985 Citroen 2CV yesterday on ebay.It was only 105 pounds. The only thing that stopped me is that my parents may finally think I have actually gone mad.
"The secret of happiness is to admire without desiring"
Carl Sandburg
"Better keep yourself clean and bright. You are the window through which you must see the world"
George Bernard Shaw
October 11, 2005
The music video
Listening to music on your headphones in the city is an amazing way to start your day. Everyone in Paris has an Ipod, and I am still working with a CD player, but I love it. It was a leaving gift from the school in Warsaw and I think of them all every time I use it.
This morning I listened to Incubus, and everything turned into a music video. A leaf floating to the floor to the sound of 'circles'. People trotting over the road, trying to avoid the bus to the sound of 'warning'. The chilled out 'are you in' floating through my head as I watched all the people on the bus sway gently trying to stay on their feet as the bus navigates its way through the sea of traffic.
Living life as the star in your own music video is so cool. Every morning I get to provide a different soundtrack to my day. I get to see the world through the eyes of a different musician, someone wh0 writes and sings to show me something that I haven't seen before.
"Hey whatever it means to you
Know that everything moves in circles"
Incubus
(Circles)
"Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life"
Berthold Auerbach
This morning I listened to Incubus, and everything turned into a music video. A leaf floating to the floor to the sound of 'circles'. People trotting over the road, trying to avoid the bus to the sound of 'warning'. The chilled out 'are you in' floating through my head as I watched all the people on the bus sway gently trying to stay on their feet as the bus navigates its way through the sea of traffic.
Living life as the star in your own music video is so cool. Every morning I get to provide a different soundtrack to my day. I get to see the world through the eyes of a different musician, someone wh0 writes and sings to show me something that I haven't seen before.
"Hey whatever it means to you
Know that everything moves in circles"
Incubus
(Circles)
"Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life"
Berthold Auerbach
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